I think its time to find myself again. While I have had oodles of fun playing the party girl the last couple of months, crap I think its actually been a year, I am starting to miss the responsible Vickey that was always on top of her shit. I know the Honky misses her.
I'm not sure I remember her exactly but maybe I can keep some of the new and blend it with the old to make a new and improved Vickey. One that sleeps a little more, studies a little more, and generally cares a little more. Aha that was it, caring. I used to care. I know why I stopped caring but in hind-site I don't think that was the solution. Although it did take me to some crazy places with some amazing adventures.
I still want adventures so now I will have to deal with disappointment but that is better than losing myself in the madness.