Wednesday, January 5, 2011

2011 The Year of ME!

Holy crap I haven't blogged for an entire year. Hmmm the gist of it:
School was really really hard but I did well and had mostly A's and even the C+ in business calculus didn't bother me because....Cs get degrees!
Roller Derby almost broke me so many times I lost count. By "broke" I don't mean physically, I mean mentally.  It was a super hard draining year but you know what? The banked track is almost up and that makes it all worth it. More about that in a minute.
2010 also saw the demise of my relationship of almost 6 (or 7 not sure which) years.  Sad I suppose.  Whats really sad I guess is that I am not sad.  Why did I stay with something broken for so long that at the end I was relieved and not sad?  I do feel sad, sad for hurting him.  I never wish to do that to anyone ever again.  I know thats a pipe dream tho, its part of life.  People get hurt.  Someday he will get over it and hopefully be better off as I feel I am now.  Oh did I mention I might be dying of cancer?? LOL.  Yeah i'm pretty sure I am not but I go for the boobie squish test on the 14th.
So that was my 2010 in a nutshell.  Well except for starting the banked track build in December and OMFG, I had no idea it would be this much work.  Yes, I live in a bubble.  I thought it was going to be like IKEA and we just had to put the shit together.  So wrong and so thankful for the volunteer time of Workboots who is almost single-handedly completing the build.  I have done what I can and basically lived down there with Creme BruiseSlay.  I have done so many things I thought I never would.  I used power tools! I welded (once, fuck that it scares me), I cut steel and used a table saw and a grinder! Quite empowering really. 
I think I am getting back to who I used to be, ME.  I missed me, I think me missed me too.  Perhaps I will even keep up on the blog...or only when I am procrastinating. Shit I better finish my speech for class tomorrow.