I feel guilty when I say no

Someday I will learn to say no.  Until then I am yet another stage of overwhelmed.  School, derby, unr club for derby, trying to have fun time.  Something is gonna have to give. Actually the thing that is killing me is my mother and her assuming I have all the time in the world to answer her emails and calls and run her bitch errands.  She has seen how busy I am and even commented on me needing an assistant yet she adds to my load without a second thought. *sigh*

So this is what its all about.

The year of me continues!
I had an amazingly EPIC good time tonight.  Jello wrestling was so much fun.  Not so much the Jello which was absolutely freezing but the RRGs and the crowd made it the best wrestling adventure yet.  Luckily (uh yeah I did the lineup) Brain Freeze and I went first so the jello was still pretty and looked like jello.  By the end of the night the orange and lime mixed with 40-something cans of whipped cream and looked basically like chunky light brown vomit.
The highlight of wrestling was a bachelor party (19 guys!).  They were phenomenal.  3 of them, wait 4?, wrestled the a girl but of course that turned into all the girls.  Even Sgt. Sin and the Nick of radness wrestled.  OMG sticky evil nastiness when it dried and it was everywhere. 
Back to the bachelor party of radness. I got a text from the grooms phone (who sent it I have no idea) saying Ï find you to be quite fetching. Come home with us!!!
What could I do? I HAD to meet up with them.  Did I mention that they took the peppermill bus to Carson for wrestling? 2 of them were kind enough to let me use their shower and we were off to the Mens Club where my showered wife would meet us.
They made us feel like Queens! Thanked us profously for the wrestling and even more so for joining them. They even toasted us.  My ego needed that.  It also enjoyed the blatant flirting from the super cute (but not so bright boy) who told me I was the most attractive girl that wrestled.  Woohoo for me!
Mens club rocked Groom bought me a lap dance and I knew the chick so we put on a good show for them ;)  Crazy crazy night.  Wound up back at their room hanging out until not attractive dood made a few too may passes and we took that as our sign to head home.
Fantastic night.  EPIC. 
I think people do this stuff often.  I think people are supposed to have fun.  I can't believe I have been missing out on all of this amazingness.  No point dwelling, I am just happy I learned now that I can go out and meet new people and have FUN. Fun, fun, fun, I deeply missed having fun and adventures. 

6 hours of awesome

So awesome in fact that I am actually going to blog about them.  Impromptu girls night out orchestrated through facebook.  Original plan: Laser tag and bull riding.  What really happened: Drinks and apps at Caddy Ranch with a rousing game of "have you ever".  Left fully tipsy and somehow forget entirely about the bull riding.  Did I mention that Sin (my hero) was our (creme, necro, and myself) DD.  Thank you Sin.  So our fabulous DD drove us to the GSR for laser tag and yippee Slayla met us there.  Hit the honky tonk bar but it was far to early (we weren't drunk enough yet) to line dance.  So laser tag! Yeah, fuck that.  Little kids everywhere.  Don't know what I was thinking.  On to the bowling alley bar for more drinks! Having been refueled with alcohol it was time for the next phase our night.  We headed to the Walmart.  Skates on in the parking lot, Slayla attempting to catch video we rolled inside.  The greeters greeted us warmly and asked us to slow down. SAWEET!
     Side note: When we did this at Target they booted us in about 15 seconds)
The floor inside Walmart is some amazing polished concrete.  AMAZING.  We cruised through grocery and then split up into 2 groups and cruised somewhere.  We thinks it was about 5 minutes before the manager politely informed us that we could not have roller skates in the store.  I asked if we could purchase and anergy drink on our way out and he obliged.  Are you kidding me??!! FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!  Saldy video didn't turn out but hey it was a freaking blast so who cares.  Next stop on teh girls night out tour was teh GSR parking lot to regroup.  Upon arriving at the car it was noticed that a woman was sitting inside her car honky her horn yelling at a gentlemen that was PEEING on her car.  Seriously.  RRG to the rescue we skate/run over and Slayla verbally asaults the guy.  At that moment the lady hops out and says Ït's OK, he is my best friend!"  We all had a damn good chuckle and her peeing friend told us he was happy there were still heors out there.  Slayla ran ém over a flier for our poker run and we were on our way.  To the Alibi.  Damn I love that bar.  If you haven't been then go.  Now, you can finish reading this later.  The Alibi was just as Epic as the rest of the night had been.  Truth or Dare app on Necro's phone, well really just Dare.  Sitting at a bar wearing roller skates, drinking, daring, and of course dancing on tables singing Journey at the top of our lungs.  Totally epic.  AND it wasn't over yet.  Donuts. mmmm donuts.  We skated over to the donut place at the beginning of Wells.  Dood, tasty tasty tasty donuts. 
That is what Spring Break is all about my friends.  Insanely fun nights full of drunken laughter and rediculous dares.  Some pretty funny-ass truths too. 
Sin almost got hit by a drunk driver on the way home, ironic?

2011 The Year of ME!

Holy crap I haven't blogged for an entire year. Hmmm the gist of it:
School was really really hard but I did well and had mostly A's and even the C+ in business calculus didn't bother me because....Cs get degrees!
Roller Derby almost broke me so many times I lost count. By "broke" I don't mean physically, I mean mentally.  It was a super hard draining year but you know what? The banked track is almost up and that makes it all worth it. More about that in a minute.
2010 also saw the demise of my relationship of almost 6 (or 7 not sure which) years.  Sad I suppose.  Whats really sad I guess is that I am not sad.  Why did I stay with something broken for so long that at the end I was relieved and not sad?  I do feel sad, sad for hurting him.  I never wish to do that to anyone ever again.  I know thats a pipe dream tho, its part of life.  People get hurt.  Someday he will get over it and hopefully be better off as I feel I am now.  Oh did I mention I might be dying of cancer?? LOL.  Yeah i'm pretty sure I am not but I go for the boobie squish test on the 14th.
So that was my 2010 in a nutshell.  Well except for starting the banked track build in December and OMFG, I had no idea it would be this much work.  Yes, I live in a bubble.  I thought it was going to be like IKEA and we just had to put the shit together.  So wrong and so thankful for the volunteer time of Workboots who is almost single-handedly completing the build.  I have done what I can and basically lived down there with Creme BruiseSlay.  I have done so many things I thought I never would.  I used power tools! I welded (once, fuck that it scares me), I cut steel and used a table saw and a grinder! Quite empowering really. 
I think I am getting back to who I used to be, ME.  I missed me, I think me missed me too.  Perhaps I will even keep up on the blog...or only when I am procrastinating. Shit I better finish my speech for class tomorrow.

The Phone Book

I do not understand why the phone book still gets delivered.  Why isn't it an optional thing? Or better yet why not a voluntary thing.  Call them if you want one.  Both Patrick and Jackie left them on the door step for a good week before they brought them in the house, only to shove them in a closet or under a bench.  I know that 100% of the population doesn't use the internet but honestly at least 75% does.  My mom does for goodness sakes.  So why waste the paper to print out these books that most people loathe seeing on their door step.  Oh and not 1 but 2 phone books.  Huge waste of paper and money, seriously.  Can we start a petition? 

Black Friday!

Its been ages and ages since I posted.  Too busy or lazy im not sure which.  I had to break the streak to write about the epic awesomeness that was back Friday!
Jackie, Pdog, and I rolled out of the house at 11:30 and headed to Legends where we signed up for the shopping spree and hit up a couple stores that were smart enough to open before midnight.  Then it was off to Toys R Us where we waited in line (with the rest of Reno?!) for 1.5 hours after the store had opened. Brrrrrrrr but well worth it as we got all the holiday deals we wanted and shopping for the boys is DONE.  Jackie scored quite a few things as (insert massive warm fuzzies) she and Ed are not buying presents for each other, they decided to buy presents for the Christmas on the Corridor kids and the cancer kids in the hospital instead.  Yeah you know YOU feel like an ass now, I do too. Toys R Us was crazy insane madness, you couldn't even push a cart down the isles (Jackie totally stole someones cart, and I will be forever grateful, pdog too since he got stuck waiting in the HUGE line while we shopped).
From Toys R Us it was back to Legends, after dropping pdog off at home, and clothes shopping for Jack and I until Target opened at 5.  Target was rad-doors were open and there was no counting heads and stopping people at a certain number.  They had their shit together.  Once again I got exactly what I went for and despite a line that went around the store we only waited in it for 10 minutes!  Jack was done after that so I dropped her happy ass off at home and headed to Ace for the shop vac pdog wanted, got there right at opening (7am) scored te shop vac and headed to 2 different Radio Shacks to get the sweet camera deal.  Finally got home some where around 8 am.  When I say home I meant the place I was cat sitting and while adorable I think the cat was either dying or on a hunger strike.
I managed to stay awake until 10am and then I was out like a light...until Jackie called at 11:30 because we had lunch plans with Kristel.  A quick trip downtown and yummy lunch with Kristel and we were off once again!  This time Micheals where I got all stocking stuffers taken care of and Costco.  Holy effin crap it was an epic day of shopping.
I somehow managed to stay awake until 10pm that night.  No idea how-it felt like high school times.  Super happy that I am DONE with Christmas shopping but even happier that Jack and I spent like 2 days together.  Despite a few bitchy moments-me in Forever 21 and she in Target and pdog in Toys R Us, yeah we all had our moments.  Oh and Forever 21 was awesome.  I have no idea how Jack can come up with this stuff so quickly. Sales girl "You cannot return lingerie" Jackie-"But I do it all the time" with innocent confused look.  I was lmao as the 18 year old said Jackie was corrupting her and I couldn't help insert-dont go A T M.
Steller good times and overall a rad weekend that didn't seem to end but now its Monday and I really need to do homework.

Anything you can do, I can do....(better)

I need to get this out of my system.
The System sucks. I think that I could potentially do anything. As in any job. Train me and I can do it. But I can't in the eyes of "The system". I need a degree to be considered competent or qualified. But that's crap too. Qualified? Ask any college graduate if they feel qualified after they graduate. Or if they retained any of what they just learned. Most will say no. Pdog and Jackie both laughed when I told them I was worried because I could not remember the CCNA stuff I had just learned. Apparently thats completely normal. So if no one retains what they learn and everyone learns on the job then why do I need a piece of paper so that I too can learn on the job. Proof that I, like so many others, am in debt because of school. So in order for me to get a good job I have to go into debt to "earn" that job.
Just silly thoughts that were eating me up the other night.